i must be
immortal. i have lived for ten thousand years and
died a thousand times.
in city streets, fainted in public,
literally shit myself and experienced
whatever social nightmare there is. express cash advance
destroyed, considered totally
unemployable and labeled worthless.
i have lost
my house, my car and all of my
belongings. i owe more money than
the average person earns per annum and receive
nothing in benefits or income.
the phone rang
silent, friends stopped
visiting and my spouse left, taking
custody of my little boy.
everything i had is
gone, everything i've done is
wasted and every memory i've experienced
has been utterly pointless.
anxiety disorder and panic attacks,
this is my story..